How can i better deal with this anxiety?

Anxiety: I would first suggest a check up with your md to rule out physical problems. If everything ok consult with a mental health professional to help you deal with your anxiety.

Start w medical eval: Talk about feelings ; address problems. Don't avoid them. Aim for 7.5 - 8 hours of sleep/ night. Daily physical activity is optimal in a green space. Eat healthfully. Cut out junk carbs, caffeine ; alcohol (or moderate). Try qi gong, tai chi, acupuncture, acupressure, homeopathy, meditation, yoga, exercise program, deep breathing exercises or progressive muscle relaxation.