I am scared for my high risk hpv and ascus results. i am getting a colposcopy, but i feel like i have no reassurance and alone in this situation. am i going to be ok? or should i be worried?

Your third or fourth question. See other replies, which offered you a whole lot of reassurance. You're going to be just fine. The doctor when you have your colposcopy probably will have similar reassurance.

There is no pointing in worrying. You are doing the right thing. There are problems and there solutions. IOf a problem is found it will be addressed and you will be OK.