I have suicidal idealization by no intention to actually commit suicide. i know i will never carry it out, so calling 911 isn't necessary. help how?

Suicidal thought: You need psychiatrist for through evaluation and medication treatment right now. Also the sessions with psychologist for cognitive and behavior modifications.

Get Help: National suicide prevention hotline 1-800-273-talk. I would encourage you to talk to a primary care doctor to get a referral for a psychologist/or a qualified mental health professional to figure out what's happening with you. If thoughts of suicide become overwhelming, please dial 911 or go to the nearest emergency room -- they will do psych eval at the er and discuss your options.