I have had severe panic disorder and depression for over 25 years. my husband is abusive im old and sick and feel i cant leave. therapy has not helped all these years. dont know what to do. the people im closest to have either died or are sick?

I understand your distress. • Have Faith in Creator and Universe! • Express Gratitude to all Elements of Universe which have nurtured you for 56-years. • Focus on Blessing of Breath of Life every 4 seconds due to which you are Alive! • Be proud of your achievements. • Have Tele-Health visit with a Psychiatrist in your area of residence and discuss medication for depression and panic.

As previously stated would follow up with a therapist to discuss your options and call an abuse hotline as well https://www.domesticshelters.org/help/ca/san-jose