I try to control my blood sugars as best i can, but its so difficult at times. im so scared that because of this, i will die or be seriously ill if i get the virus. i am simply terrified. please help.

Anxiety: Your anxiety is overall justified, given massive social tension mounted by the pandemic. Depending on local resources and through your doc's office, you may benefit from counseling from a clinical psychologist via telemedicine in order to avoid exposure during lockdown. Use this time to connect to your loved ones remotely ( Skype, phone, etc) and talk about your worries.