Every single week , ive depression, when i ignore it , i hold my tears , it get worse to major depression, i hate it so much ,what i need to do?

Not on line: This is something you do need to seek out help for directly. It may be as simple as finding a life coach to talk out some concerns or you may have real treatable depression. The late teen years and early 20's is when these things often emerge & they are not uncommon. If you do the work you can get back into a better place. Your regular doc can help you locate help.