Hi i dont know if clinically depressed or not but i have episode of strong feeling that i want to end my life...i dont who to turn to?

Anybody: you can turn to a freind,family,love one,a priest or any person might be related to your religion,talk to a counselor,there is a mental health counselor everywhere.you can dial a hot line in your area. if your feeling become strong call 911 or the police or go to the closest ER. THERE IS A LOT OF HELP OUT THERE. DO NOT TRY TO SOLVE A TEMPORARY PROBLEM WITH A PERMANENT SOLUTION.

See someone!: What you describe is not just the usual ups and downs of life. When you consider suicide, you really need professional help. Call a suicide hotline or go to an ER. Or talk to your doctor about referral to a therapist and/or psychiatrist. I'm glad you reached out. We care about you. Things get better, but when you feel that bad it's hard to remember. Trust me. And let someone help you right now!