Sometimes i feel like id rather be dead then deal with crohns. or the drs that tell me "they can't help" even my gi said . that. im mad at the world?

Unfair: Of course you are. This is not fair. It can be overwhelming and, at times, too much to bear. But, bear it you must. Here are some ideas: find others your age with the same diagnosis. Talk to a trusted older person about how hard life can be and how they survived when it was tough. Read a book or two about surviving illness. Go find someone to help who has more suffering than you.