What can i do if a pyschologist opinion/approval view of me is so intense and i feel worthless that it makes me feel like i should die ?

Opinions don't count: I'm a psychologist so when I say that - it goes for mine too. Maybe they see things they find unacceptable to the point they can't work w/ you. That should lead them to refer you. Worth is not a good word - we are not commodities. Please trust that there will be more accepting people if you seek them. Try an AA meeting even if you are not a substance user. Try clergy. Try to live.