I always think im gonna go ill or get illl it just scares only felt like this since i had my kidney transplant in 2001?

Don't : The point of a transplant is to life life. You had your transplant in 2001 and I am presuming you have not been ill. This is 14 yrs! Risk of infection goes down. Just be sensible in what you do, go about life and enjoy your life. Even if you get an illness most can be dealt with, so enjoy and take your meds. Happy that your kidney is 14 yrs old and am sure you can get many more out of it !!