I'm getting really depressed and i don't know what to do. i have so many conflicts in my mind?

Need to consult: It appears that in your situation there is only one way to deal with it. I strongly advise you to trust your doctor and ask if he feels comfortable in prescribing some medication or if he advises you if a referral to a Psychiatrist is required.

Seek help: depression is a serious illness ,seek help ,there is a lot of counseling and medication that can help. you can not fix it by yourself, it is a chemical imbalance in the brain, strong will is not enough, it needs medications to restore the balance. so please seek help.

Feeling Good: There are several types of depression. Reactive depression occurs as a result of loss and eventually we adjust. If one does not adjust or if the cause is not clear certainly seek professional help. "feeling good" by david burns is an excellent self-help book based on science. Don't let the thickness of it intimidate you. Take it bit by bit. The very best to you.

Therapy?: Have you yet tried any form of psychotherapy? Typically, the optimal combination of things to treat emotional issues such as depression is medication (which, on your best day, is supposed to take the edge off symptoms) but the real gruntwork takes place in psychotherapist's consulting room.