Why is it that the only time i want to clean get up and i feel good about myself is when i take a vicodin. i feel like that's all i need and want.

Opiates and anxiety: Opiate are powerful for making cares of world diminish, but this is delusion. Unfotrtunately, opiates can be addictive, interfere with astute decision making, & disrupt attendance to what you need to do to survive and prosper in life. Opiates will diminish your ability to be successful and have truly good friends. Perhaps you need counseling to deal with life stress, angst, and poor self-image.