I don't want to be suicidal any more, its going to result with me in hospital or dead. it's horrible being suicidal. i'm really suicidal at the moment?

GET HELP NOW: The national suicide prevention lifeline 1-800-273-talk (8255). You can also call 911 or go to the nearest emergency room if feelings of suicidality are hard to control.Find a psychotherapist where you can create a crisis plan for when symptoms return. Discuss what trigger your suicidal thoughts. Consider meds if there's a need. Be safe!