I am getting death threats and messages to kill myself because of something that happened a long time ago. i am physically ill from it. over 6 months.

Go to the hospital: It sounds like you are in serious danger and need help right away. Go to the hospital or call crisis services right away.

See your doctor now!: This problem can only be solved by seeing your doctor and being evaluated face-to-face. He/she can helpyou decipher what's going on. After a thorough examination, your doctor should be able to tell you what's wrong and what to do about it.