Am feeling very upset very depressed about myself everything is black and white i always want to cry and sometimes i think about death?

Share with Ur MD: The issues you raise suggest you are lapsing into true depressive thoughts that might respond to some help.Share this with your pcp & see if s/he can set you up for an evaluation.

There is hope: Between counselling and perhaps medication there are so many ways to help this. Please feel free to ask your primary care for a screening physical and then a referral to a mental health practitioner.