I abuse laxatives and since my lowest weight i have gained 4kgs when i tried to stop cold turkey for a week, am i retaining water? my face appears big

Concerned: If you have been abusing laxatives this suggests a possible eating disorder. This would mean you are likely to think you look "big" when actually you might be returning to a healthier weight. I'm concerned about the possibility it is an eating disorder, as these can be quite deadly actually. Please consider getting evaluated by a mental health clinician.