What to do if i might have mental illness of some sort, please help?

Careful Evaluation: The question is imporetant. Many people struggle with a sense of shame and embarassment about seeking mh help. It is seen as an admission of inadequacy. After you resolve this, seek the help of a qualified professional who will spend several visits with you doing a comprehensive evaluation. If this individual prescribes medications after seeing you for 15 minutes---find someone else.