I know this is going to sound insane but i have had bloody stool for a few years now. what is this. too afraid for doctors visit also no longer having regular bowel movements. it looks like balls of puss when i try to have a bowel movement and it smells.

You : You definitely need to see a doctor right away. Blood in the stool is often just hemorrhoids or something minor like that. But sometimes in can be something much worse that needs to be diagnosed without delay.

See a doctor: There are many reasons for your symptoms, many of them treatable with simple solutions. In order to fully investigate, you need to see a doctor. While it is understandable you are afraid, this is the only way to get much needed relief by determining what treatment you need. Only your doctor can determine this.

As above: Can be due to many reasons , it is important to see a GI physician for colonoscopy . Good luck.