I am all alone, can't sleep and think of ending my life often, all though i don't think i will go though with it, wish i could.

Seek counseling: Immediately. If you are considering ending your life you should seek crisis intervention.

Call a hotline now: Call a suicide hotline right now. They will help you. Call 1-800-784-2433. You need to speak with a therapist. You might need medication. Good luck. There is so much to live for.

Life is hard: I have known many like what you describe and they all worked at the solution and got to the point where life is back to normal. The secret is to talk to a trained professional and explain what you are feeling. That is the most important first step. You will be better and much happier. I know you have great things yet to do.

Please live: I have been personally in your shoes, around your age. I really do know how you feel. And i also know you can feel better. With the help of people, medication and hard work, you can push through this and get that love and excitement of life back again. Please call a hotline, 911, or just go to er and tell them how you are feeling to get the door opened just a crack. Then help can come in -hang in!

Get Help Now!: National suicide prevention lifeline 1-800-273-talk (8255): please find help --- go to the nearest emergency room or dial 911. They will do a complete eval at the er and discuss your options where you counseling referrals will be discussed! don't fight it alone you need help! stay safe!