What to do if i can't handle life right now?

Get a guide: A physician, pastor, or some counselor who's got common sense and knows how the community works is your best resource. You are going to have to take initiatives in sorting things out in an unfair and often brutal world. You can do it -- that you've asked means it will. Your first goal will probably be to learn a new skill -- perhaps even marketable. If you think you will hurt yourself, call 911.