18 years old, agoraphobic , panic disorder, afraid to leave my house no insurance options ?

Call for help: It depends where you live, but there are different resources. Sometimes calling 2-1-1 gives you united way which can refer to many different resources.

Agoraphobia: Also, may psychiatry residency programs have free psychiatry clinics run by the psychiatry residents under the supervision of attending physicians. If you live nearby a university center, contact them and see if they have a psychiatry training program.

Introspection: Recall your abandonments and how they affected you.