Why is my brain always feel stress up unless i take alcohol before i feel ok and happy?

Self Medication: I am going to speak very frankly. You have a disease, known as addiction or alcoholism. Alcohol can lie to our brains and we think it is making us happier or more fun. But, in reality alcohol is a depressant. It interrupts rem sleep and can lead to increasing despair, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts. You need to get sober and to stay sober for at least a month to see how your brain works.