Hi. good evening. i think i had depression. it's been 2 years. i had some suicidal thoughts lately, only thoughts. i feel worthless, the depression come from peoples by do manipulating?

Please find a psychiatrist or psychologist, and get this evaluated. Medications can reverse the symptoms, and counseling can improve coping skills. No rationale to live with this, so, be proactive and change your environment.

Have you met with your primary care doctor to see if there are medical reasons for your depression? In therapy, work trigger your suicidal thoughts. Consider meds if there's a need. Find a psychotherapist where you can create a crisis plan for when symptoms return. Call your local medical emergency services if feelings of suicidality are hard to control.

There are effective treatments for depression and you should see a doctor at your earliest. In the meantime, start exercising. Begin with low intensity exercise such as walking and gradually increase the intensity so that you sweat profusely. It may take a few months for the full effect. Wish you good health!