I hallucinate when i get extremely depressed (about once a week) and my mood pivots between hypo and extra motivated to suicidal and very unhappy.help?

Need evaluation: Sounds like you may have symptoms of bipolar disorder, but without a full evaluation of all of your symptoms it is impossible to know for sure. This is a medical condition that can be treated very effectively with the right diagnosis and medication, just like if you had high blood pressure or strep throat. But you need someone to check you out and get you on the right treatment. Don't delay!