What should you do if you get much worse after psychotherapy? i have really stopped trusting meds and/or therapy is helpful and are very risky.

Psychotherapy risks: Working with most professional psychotherapists, you shouldn't be getting worse with therapy. If you are, please tell the therapist and your psychiatrist -- may also need 2nd opinion on your case. This said, unethically-behaving therapists may cause patients to worsen. This is rare, but happens. For ethics for different types of therapists: http://www.Goodtherapy.Org/ethics-therapy.Html.

See Below: I'm sorry about your experiences. Your treatment requires 2-way communication (from your providers to you and vise versa). Discuss your feelings with your providers; otherwise they might not know what's happening -- nobody can read your mind. Find a "talk therapist" to help you sort out through your feelings and trace the mistrust to possibly similar situations in the past. Good luck!