I've been struggling with depression off and on my entire life. i'm to the point where i don't want help anymore. is this just a phase i'm going thro?

Please be seen: I'm sorry to hear of the difficulties you're having. From your message it's unclear whether you've had actual treatment for depression, or not? Your message is ominous, like you're giving up -- or even possibly contemplating suicide? I urge you to see your physician about this right away. If you're already working with a psychiatrist or therapist please call today.

On again?: Dealing with any chronic illness can be very discouraging. Depression can be worse as the condition itself can leave you apathetic and lacking the drive to fight back. I firmly believe if you work with the right provider utilizing psychotherapy and medications that you can find a path out of your current despair. Make sure your treatment has a goal of remission so your depression quits recurring!