I feel like a failure and i loathe myself. what can i do?

Get help now!: Feeling like a failure and feeing self-loathing may be signs of depression - and this is very painful! It is also treatable, but you must seek help. Make an appointment with your health care provider ASAP, but if you are having suicidal thinking, call your crisis line, or simply go to your local Emergency Room. This is important. Things can get better - but only if you're breathing! Good luck.