What's the best depression medicine on the market my dr prescribed me celexa (citalopram) it makes me sleep i don't wanna wake up i've had 3 deaths in one year?

Talk Therapy!: While you search for a better antidepressant, definitely get involved in supportive talk therapy. The losses you've faced and your grief will not be resolved by drugs alone - they may not even be necessary. You need to work through your feelings which may be fairly normal and healthy. But, un-dealt with, they can fester leading to worse symptoms. Be picky, this therapist is one you need to trust.

Talk therapy is best: There is no best depression medicine, everyone responds differently and many people do not respond at all (for most people, it is a placebo). The best medicine for you is likely talk therapy. It sounds like you are trying to use medication as emotional anesthesia to avoid grieving. That will make things worse-- much worse. You need to talk to a psychotherapist who can help you grieve.