I have a history of substance abuse i was on suboxone for a couple years did great on it and off it for a little bit but i'm struggling now. don't know where to go for help or direction... is there an anti depressant or something that could help? idk?

Best would be to establish with a primary care doc that can further coordinate based on exam and details. Drugs are not always the answer, make sure you do your part, reduce stressful activities if possible, protect your rest/ sleep time as well as relaxing/ physical activities.

Even though you are off your suboxone, it might behoove you to re-visit the prior doctor. It does sound as if emotional challenges are becoming larger, and perhaps a psychiatrist is the better place to start. A full evaluation will pinpoint your best therapeutic approach.