I...not really a question but concerned...give my best (thanks regardless for any thoughts). been chronically using alcohol heavily while also overusing amphetamine perscription and taking up tobacco smoking (2+ years now). really concerned?

Find a life coach. These agents are often just a crutch to make areas that bother you seem more distant. I would seek out a life coach/therapist who could help you explore your stressors and learn the skills need3d to overcome them without self medicating.

You have three adverse influences upon your health. Would agree with Dr Ferguson, as you could benefit with guidance to handle these influences. Recommend you first contact the physician who prescribed the amphetamines. Depending upon your motivation, you could consider working with AA to gain readily available support system. Your post is encouraging. Please follow through.

Are you happy? Is your family happy? You have recognized the problem,, this is the very important step. Alcoholic Anonymous is a great support group. If you can start there. All who are born are walking towards their death, whatever one can do. It is the journey by which you can make your existence worth something. Everyone has problems. Good Luck.