I'm curious as to what has it been like to live with borderline personality disorder?

Chaotic: People with a "borderline" personality organization have a very difficult time distinguishing between the consequences of their own actions, and those caused by teh actions of another. They therefore tend to swing back and forth between strong self-blame and blaming others. This makes it difficult for one to make an accurate assessment of oneself--emotions and tempers often flare.

Borderline: Intense fear of abandonment, being manipulative, impulsivity, a tendency to think of people and things in all good or all bad terms, self mutilating behaviors, drug and alcohol abuse, sexual impulsivity, a profoundly disturb sense of self, and extreme emotional volatility.