I wish i get kidnapped so sican be sexually tortured and raped.i love hurting myself physicly.what can i do to get rid of these dark fantasies? thanks

ER: It sounds like you're going through a crisis right now ... Your best bet is to head to the nearest ER and be evaluated by a psychiatrist.

Psychological help: I advise you talk to your parents and tell them you want to see a psychologist (ideally female)- you do not need to give the details why- maybe focus on your desire to self-hurt. While a psychiatrist may help too, they tend to focus on drug therapy, You need counseling more than drugs, though drugs might help too; your psychologist can refer you to a psychiatrist if she thinks that it would help.