Psychologically i've processed i'm fat. i walk with a swing i think and feel out of breath and get leg pain. has my body begun to work like i think?

Body image?: What I hearin your question are issues of body image, and can be discussed at length with a reputable psychotherapist. What does fat mean to you? What does it mean to be fat? I also hear issues of personal control in your question. Do you feel as though you have no say about your weight and whether or not you are actually fat? Find a good psychotherapist, and have at it! Best of luck.