I find myself in a depression cycle. i have tried all from , vitamins, herbs, etc, to try to help myself. what should i do? not a fan of doctors.

Be brave: I admire your courage in writing, especially when you are reluctant to visit a physician. I've known folks who say that after a few days on an antidepressant, it's like having new glasses -- they see the world as it is. While only a doctor can prescribe such, a good psychologist or someone else able to do cognitive-behavioral rx can help you reprogram. Most people are disappointed with herbs.