Explosive mood swings once a month for a year now and is getting worse. why? for the past year once a month around my menstrual cycle my mood becomes very unstable and i fly off the deep end. it has come to the point where i have put my hands on my partne

Hello. : Hello. There is clearly more going on here than premenstrual dysphoric disorder, but your hormones are exacerbating an underlying condition. Don't ever put your hands on your partner. "just pushing" is domestic violence. Putting your head through a wall can cause serious traumatic injury to your brain. Cleary the situation is very out of control. You need to seek psychiatric assistance asap. You will need to undergo and comprehensive psychological assessment. You are correct about the possible consequences of not getting help (losing your children, losing your partner, damaging your health and possible arrest). Please see a psychiatrist. Take care.