My food pushes up into my throat and chokes me, i have constant hiccups, heartburn, i am too afraid to eat because i vomit it all out later.?

Reflux: A visit to a gastroenterologist is in order. Even if this is not a full-blown hiatus hernia, it's worth checking out; expect to get endoscoped. Any of several different illnesses, some very serious-but-treatable, is at the bottom of this. In the meantime, try propping the head of your bed up on cinder blocks and getting an over-the-counter proton pump inhibitor.