I'm worried the nurse lied to be about my hiv test result..it was neg.

Is this rational?: If there's some particular reason to think she bears you malice (and it's not impossible), ask the lab to send you a copy of the paperwork. It's your legal right. If you have the obsessive idea that you have HIV despite a report of normal, and you recognize this as a trick your mind is playing,then your physician can recommend ways to manage this -- happens to many of us. Glad you're asking.