I called a suicide hot line and was asked repeatedly what specifically was going on (even after i told her repeatedly) how was that suppose to help?

Get help now.: Do not kill yourself. It may feel horrible right now and there is no way out and you want to die but there if there is an inkling of hope which I know there is because you are asking us for help then get out of your house and go to the nearest ER. They can help you get through this and make you feel better. Doctors are here to help no matter the situation. Go Go now!

Suicide: Unfortunately the suicide hotline is manned by people who may have the purest and best desires, That being said, their individual ability and acumen may leave a bit to be desired. This is to say all kinds/types man that hotline. It's too bad you had a negative experience, but try not to judge all such workers harshly. I see you are still alive to ask this question; something must have gone right.