I feel depressed. what should i do. i have a big secret aswell and i think that's what is causing me to think like this.

You NEED: to SPEAK WITH SOMEONE Writing about your problem is not enough See Professional help! ASAP! Dr Z

Counseling: I suggest you get counseling. You don't necessarily need to see a psychiatrist. A counseling psychologist or other certified counselor can help you. Everything you tell them is strictly confidential, so your "big secret" will be safe. I wish you the best.