Please help! what if shopping does makes me happy and i can't stop?

I would encourage to: Look into cognitive behavioral therapy. If you don't get a hold of this - it may lead to negative consequences.

Compulsive shopping: It sounds like you recognize your shopping patterns are out of control. Shopping addiction (aka compulsive spending), is a true problem -- and currently would fall under impulse control disorders in dsm v. People make jokes about "retail therapy, " but this can become very serious. Psychotherapy that works through inner anxieties and associated shame is needed. http://tinyurl.com/lrxz7pz.