I feel really depressed to go back to the mental ward, need some advice please?

Talk with your: Psychiatrist ; /or psychologist about your depression ; feelings about inpatient treatment. I have found that if risk of danger to self ; others isn't too high ; patient doesn't have severe impairment - that partial hospitalization (or intensive outpatient program) can be very beneficial. Not all insurance companies offer it ; your doctor would need to insure that it's an appropriate option.