I think i have add! but can't go to a doctor because i already spend a lot of time in hospitals, and i think this will just be swept under the carpet!

Talk to your parents: About getting evaluated. It doesn't need to be done at a hospital.I would not try to get it assessed when in the midst of taking care of another ailment that may take higher priority. For example - if you are having severe chest pain - don't expect others to focus on attention issues.

Mental Health Clinic: I recognize your concern based on your past medical history, however, is there a nearby mental health clinic--unaffiliated with your hospital--that may afford you an unbiased evaluation? Typically (in the usa) the mental health care is not organized as part of typical medical care services. The initial assessment may be provided by a psychologist or licensed counselor familiar with add--not mds.