Why would i get mad i'll hit myself?

Go to the Doctor: I have no idea what this question on health tap means to you or what you want from us here. But, it sure sounds like you need medical attention that includes non-judgmental mental health evaluation. This is the very job of family physicians. I would advise you to get to your family doctor to discuss these concerns.

It sound like your: Coping skills are not very healthy. Self- harm is not the answer. Consider engaging in therapy to deal with the causes of your anger and to learn healthier ways to express it. Take care.