Need doctor advice. where do i go if i was abused as a young child?

The RIGHT therapist: I'm sorry this happened. Depending on the events, how it fit into the other situations growing up, your resilience and your other plusses, you might have learned self-defeating behaviors and attitudes. If so, the choice of therapist is key. One who focuses on learning new skills, focusing on what you love rather than hate, & developing the best in you can improve things more than you now can hope.