Im 18 and just started college and i always feel socially awkward and i get to the point that i feel so overpowered with fear that i cant relate to anyone and i get angry with myself and it makes me feel like im not normal how can i compensate this?

Find a life coach: Life sometimes sends us challenges that we don't have the skill set to master. You wouldn't try to fix your broken leg without help & shouldn't try to do this alone. The college likely has a clinic that can refer you to a life coach/therapist that can teach you the skills needed to make progress.This is not uncommon at all though you likely feel you are the only one with this problem.