I am a virgin and dont do drugs yet my hiv phobia is destroying my life. i dont know what to do. i act like i already have it and every sketchy situation i am in makes me feel like i will get it. i have no symptoms?

Intrusive thoughts: Life sometimes sends us challenges we do not have the skills to conquer. You would not try to fix your bad appendix alone & should not try to self manage this if it is interfering with life. Your doc should know a life coach/therapist that can teach you ways to sort this out. Educate yourself on the facts when you can but get the help to put this in perspective. It may be hiding other issues.