Please i ll have an amytal interview tell me if i will remember what i said or ill lose my control ?

Yes & No: Yes, you'll probably remember what you said, and no, you'll probably not lose control. Think about what happens when someone is drunk. They often are less inhibited but unless they are really, really drunk they don't black out or lose control. Amytal interviews require a skilled psychiatrist who may be able to push you a bit closer to 'dyscontrol' but most folks remember most of what happened.