Social anxiety disorder plus? i have trouble sitting on the front seats on the bus, can't stand people stand or sit behind me. going to the store can be a torture. talking to people especially men makes me blush. having a customer service job is not possi

Be proactive: Firstly what you correctly describe as social anxiety is quite common, so you are not alone; as such many people seek help and that is what you should do. A mental health professional should be well versed in this area and there a behavioral therapeutic models and medications that can be very helpful to you. Go see someone, relieve some of your misery. Help is available, avail yourself. Good luck!