I have tried mood modifiers in the past to assist with grief, and all of them produced seizures. how to convince my doc. of my veracity?

"Mood modifiers"?: What kind of "mood modifiers"? If stimulant drugs, this is very dangerous. If you mean antidepressants, you really need to see a neurologist for full evaluation of your seizures. Still, medications will not help you process grief. Antidepressants can modulate the more painful depressive symptoms, but you'll need therapy to work through losses unresponsive to usual community support. Be well.