I'm afraid that i'm a manic depressive?

Please let your: parents know -especially about your thoughts of suicide. You need prompt psychological/ psychiatric evaluation. Take care.

Bipolar d/o?: Be not afraid. this is a condition that is very common. There are many people and health professionals who can help you. See your Dr for and evaluation to begin and let them know your concerns and feelings. They can start the process to help improve your health. God Bless and best wishes to you.

Possibly: See a primary physician or psychiatrist to discuss symptoms and screening questionnaire. More likely with a family history. Medication with or without counseling is needed. Newer and better treatments are available and emerging. Mental illness can seriously affect your life, job, relationships and happiness. Suicidal thoughts are a concern so get help immediately.